Hoarder!

I realized yesterday as I finished unpacking the last few boxes into my new room that I'm a hoarder! I am super fond of small knick-knacks and in the past 5 years have gathered a lot of them! Gifts from friends, past boyz, random stuff picked up while vacationing and even a few from my brother - they all lined my bay window & dresser at my old place. The new place does not have much surface for me to display all these knick knacks and I really had to get rid of some of them! I picked a few of the really old ones from my first/ second yr of university and threw them with a very heavy heart...even now as I write this I'm thinking of digging through the trash and taking them out again...coz even tho they might be old & faded, each of these tiny figurines have a story behind them! A figure ballerina gifted to me after the first dance performance in college, a Mercedes Benz logo which my brother created in his summer school, a box of drawers given to me by my best friends in college, a souvenir that I picked up on my first international trip alone with friends, and so many others which mark different chapters in my life...and I'm reluctant to throw any of them away!

But I know it's the right thing to do coz my memories are not bound by these knick knacks but rather by the people themselves, by the places I saw & by the events that happened...and no1 can take those away from me. So I'm learning to let go...to de-clutter & keep only the ones which are in the best condition. It makes me sad to throw these things but it's required if I don't want to increase the volume of my stuff exponentially...!!

Now if only I could do the same with my clothes and actually throw clothes that I have no hope of ever fitting into which I still keep for just-in-case!!! *sigh*

Its surprising how I find it easy to let go of people who need to/ have to leave and yet mourn the loss of things so much...hmmmmm sometimes I even puzzle myself...